It’s Christmas, really?

Is it just me or does anyone else feel like 2013 sort of walked on in, said hi and exited stage left?

It’s gone so fast I can’t even remember half the things I did, and I know I did a lot!

And Christmas is just around the corner, 27 days away to be precise, and I don’t even have my tree up.

This makes me kind of upset, because I am like Santa’s little lost helper. I LOVE Christmas. It’s by far my favourite time of the year; presents, Christmas trees, carols by candlelight, Christmas light looking! What’s not to love? But life has simply got in the way this year and the Christmas cheer seems to be missing my corner of the world.

People have become so rushed they are not stopping to put their sparkly lights up; even Myers doesn’t have that Christmas feel to it yet.

Every year I make Christmas a big deal, because I never want to lose that feeling you get when you know Santa is on his way. This year I have so many plans – make Christmas cards to send out, buy amazing heart felt presents for everyone, put up the tree and dance like a maniac to ‘Santa Claus is Coming to Town’ by Mariah Carey, but you know what, I can’t find ONE free day in my calendar to get any of these things done.

I bet even Santa himself is not prepared this year!

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BOOOO!!!!!

Maybe this is why 2013 went by so fast. Life is screaming by at a pace I can’t keep up with. I think it’s time to hit the brakes and slow things down a bit.

So, once this crazy year comes to an end, I will make it a priority, a resolution if you like, to live life in the slow (er) lane. To sit back and take some down time, to not plan some activity every damn weekend.

Maybe then 2014 will at least stick around for a coffee or two.

It’s not the end of the world after all!

I was freaking out last post, not going to lie, and of course Jess had read it before our latest session on Wednesday, but as it turned out, it was not the end of the world.

Despite throwing the nutritional guidelines out the window for a bit of indulgence when the extended family were in town, Jess actually looked at this as a good thing; a lesson learned if you will.

You see, apparently its quite normal to stuff up, especially when you are just starting to make these changes in your life and your diet. And chatting to Jess about it this week, it became very clear to me why having a nutritionist is so important.

She broke it all down for me, pointed out the pros of the situation – I discovered that eating bad made me feel bad, I took the opportunity to let my friends, family and colleagues know about my wheat and dairy cuts, and I now understand why the guidelines are in place.

The stuff ups and the subsequent discussing of said stuff ups focused me again. I remembered my goal and why I was seeing a nutritionist in the first place.

So I think it’s fair to say, I’m back on track and on a new batch of gut bacteria supplements.

I also got my indicants test results back after the first batch of supps and…. drum roll please…. my acidity levels are down 2 points (I was 5.0 now Im 6.0)! My bad bacteria didn’t budge though which means one of two things. 1. My crappy eating affected the results, 2. I’m actually intolerant to something else as well and we need to do the full test of intolerants. Either way, we find out in another 3 weeks.

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So there’s the update on Operation Nutrition, stay tuned for more!

Body 1, Lahnee 0

So it seems as though my willpower is not as brilliant as I thought it was. Not that I ever really thought it was that good, but I’m learning now more than ever that our bodies are sneaky little buggers. They are tricksters!

When your body gets addicted to something, like sugar, or carbs or whatever it might be, you start to crave it. So the more you have eaten of it over your lifetime, the more your body starts to expect it. When you simply take this particular thing away, your body has withdrawals, your brain has withdrawals, and you start to crave it. Now here is where the willpower and discipline is supposed to kick in and say “NO Lahnee, you don’t NEED that piece of chocolate, you just THINK you do!” I’ve come to the conclusion that my willpower is broken; because that didn’t happen. Now I’m all ‘oh no, I’ve wrecked my nutrition plan, Jess is going to kill me,  how am I going to fix my body and make it healthy if I can’t say no to a bloody piece of white chocolate!’

Vicious cycle.

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After the craziness of feeling naughty, like I’ve cheated, or like I’ve done something really wrong calmed down, I realised that all I did was be human. If I have spent 26 years eating chocolate, of course my body doesn’t understand why I’ve suddenly stopped eating it. It takes time, and there’s no point in beating myself up about it. Jess is not really going to kill me (I hope!) and all I need to do is get back on track and keep on pushing forward. This is a journey after all and its one I will be on for a long time. So stuff ups are going to happen.

On a good note, I’m learning what my body craves when, like savoury stuff in the am and sweets in the afternoon. I’m also learning what foods make me feel good and satisfied, and which ones leave me groggy and bloated. I’m learning to look more closely at labels and to be aware of what I put in my mouth. Despite a few setbacks, I am learning, and this is the important thing.

So, til next time – eat well!

When Im feeling down…

I’m not sure why, but lately I’ve been feeling down.

I’ve been struggling with keeping up my eating plan, I’ve been struggling to get anything done at work (not ideal when you work to tight deadlines) and I’ve even been struggling in everyday tasks.

I’m low on energy, I’m low on happiness and I have absolutely no idea why, and no reason why.

I suppose it’s one of those things, these feelings can creep up on you sometimes when life seems to be going to quickly, you feel like you need to stop, even just for a day and catch up. Unfortunately life doesn’t work like that so when it all gets too much, you have to keep going anyway.

It’s that overwhelming feeling that you have gotten too far behind to snap back into normality, the routine. It’s that niggle in your chest, the tightening, the feeling of anxiety slipping into your head and your body.

I work in a high stress job. Sometimes, no matter how I try to fight it, it catches up and takes hold. Anxiety made me so sick once the doctor ordered a 2 week break! I never let it get to that point anymore but I’m feeling close at the moment. It feels almost like I’m holding out for something, for Christmas maybe, the holidays, a change in my life – something that will snap me out of it. But the one thing I’ve realised over time is that YOU are the only person and the only thing that will snap you out of it.

You need to breathe, you need to exercise, you need to talk to friends and family, you need to meditate, play with your dog, go for a walk and stop thinking so much.

Life is great, life is what you make it and life will not pause for you to work it all out. You need to roll with the punches and get back on the horse.

So that’s what I intend to do!

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Nutrition rollercoaster

Increased saliva, nausea, fatigue, moodiness, increased gas.

Hmm, I’m either preggers or having an odd reaction to the metagenics supplements.

Now Jess did warn there may be side effects, so I’m figuring this is what I’m experiencing.

But, I’m curious to hear from others who have been on these types of supps. What side effects did you have? How did you feel? How did they help you?

Another weird thing that’s been happening this week is my appetite roller-coaster.

Some days, I’ve been ravenous! Other days, I’ve not been hungry at all….

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And my diet has not changed. I’m still no wheat, no dairy. In fact, if anything my diet is getting better every day.

The only ‘new’ thing is the supps. But then again maybe that’s how these things work?

Anyone who is going through the process of changing their diet and lifestyle would probably feel the same as I am right now. It’s all a bit new and uncertain. Things are changing slowly inside you and your body, and mind, is adapting.

I think the thing I’ve learnt from this week of ups and downs is that it really is a process, and even though I’ve felt better already, it’s a long road ahead to being ‘fixed’. There is a whole journey in front of me and I’m only just beginning.

So, I’ll keep chugging along, and when I catch up with Jess in 2 more weeks, we will have plenty to talk about!

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